Written in the dark times universe of winter 2009/2010, this song is the first of a number of songs inspired by a number of heartbreaks.
lyrics
This is how it starts, with the beat on repeat
My fingers on a keyboard / my pencil on a sheet
And me trying to be the best performer I could be
While simultaneously delivering what I need
To be saying, sometime it's just me playing
Sexy chick laying, wack rapper slaying
Back packer betraying, claiming I'm the man
But that's just an act to turn listeners to fans
It doesn't work though, just for a minute
She said I needed therapy, so I went I did it
The therapist explained she had treating like a bitch
I changed just to fit, then I didn't get shit
Nah, I wouldn't hear it, I still don't really
All these other bitches trying to convince me I'm silly
Friends there for me, while she's just in the city
She said we'd talk all the time but we're too busy
I don't need the pity, you shoulda just dumped me
You had convinced me that you needed something from me
All about control, you're life a compositing
Which now I didn't fit in 'cause you changed the description
I thought it was real, of course now I doubt
Took years to get in, in a week, I was out
I just wish you'd be honest, treat me like you knew me
You called me just a friend from high school to introduce me?
Fine, if you're wondering, it's been enough time
I thought that I would die, I didn't even cry
I threw in some rhymes; if you ever heard the song
I bet you'd criticize from high ground how I'm wrong
Now Dad wants to visit – maybe you shouldn'ta left, huh?
Too stressed to text ya, go and find a step son
Like you went and found a new girl
As my eyes open up wide they reveal a new world:
Parents are people, lovers turn to strangers
Chemistry and physics fuck around and rearrange ya
So nobody's wrong, and nobody's right
And nobody owes you anything tonight
And that sounds depressing, but love still exists
It could but doesn't fit like a glove to my fist
I should just let it in but I'm clenching, won't let go
Say only a maniac would take this, clepto-
Dish it like pastry, but bake this, with pepto
'Cause you know that it's gunna get you sick like kissing strep throat
Dead to me, I'd be feelin'ya if I was necro-
I listen for I love you but can't find an echo
I listen I listen I listen
But can't find an echo
I listen I listen (I love you)
I let go
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